Most depressing Valentine's day.

Today has gone wrong in so many ways, and it's not because I don't have someone to hold on Valentine's Day. My oldest brother Chris and his wife Julie are going through a rough time right now and there's a possible chance of divorce. My brother is very irrational and he locked himself inside his house today and held a gun to his chest. His best friend Ian was in the house, so that kept my brother from doing it. He kept asking Ian to leave so he could do it. Then my mom had to call 911 ON HER OWN SON! My mom came home in tears. Shawn and I had to put all of my brother's weapons in my dad's safe so he wouldn't go home and get it.

Today seriously sucks. I never thought in a million years that my family would fall apart like this. Especially on a day where everyone's supposed to be in love. I was so close to tears.

I was gonna go out with Delawna and a few friends to this party, but I don't know if I can. I think my family needs me at home. It just confuses me how everything can seem so right, yet it's so fucked up....